A Brave Man I really

A Brave Man
I really love reading In A Dark Time. It is full of beauty and wisdom. I had no idea just how dark the dark time is...

Suddenly, though, that my concern over the nation's problems has taken a backseat to my own personal crisis. In the last month-and-a-half I have discovered that I have a large cancerous tumor in my throat and have had to examine the different treatments available, none of which are very good, and decide which of these treatments I will try. In essence, I have been making life-and-death decisions and decisions about the quality of life almost daily over the last two weeks

And yet in the face of such a crisis there is still truth...

I truly believe that moments like this, if we survive them, help us to get more out of life. By forcing us to see our life's decisions in the hard glare of critical decisions, we can begin to see how strong our beliefs are and whether or not they truly help us to make decisions when we need to. They force us to consider whether we are wasting our lives when there are more important things to be done and to decide what really is important.

...and beauty.....

So the abyss;
The slippery cold heights,
After the blinding misery

The climbing, the endless turning,
Strikes like a fire,
A terrible violence of creation,
A flash into the burning heart of the abominable;
Yet if we wait, unafraid, beyond the fearful instant,
The burning lake turns into a forest pool,
The fire subsides into rings of water,
A sunlit silence.

from Theodore Roethke's The Abyss in The Far Field